Day 2 & 3: Life Can Be So Hard

Olá, tudo bem?

(Learning Portuguese ATM to make my mum and grandma proud of me LOL)

So yes Life Can Be So Hard....Im sure most of you will agree. Nothing is easy, got to make so many sacrifices to get places...Got to work non-stop...I guess we all do this so that one day, just one day we can live a stress free-happy-ish life. But i just wish it just wasnt this hard. I know i have it so much better then so many people in the world. I have a car, roof over my head, food in my fridge i know that! and im very greatful.

Last night my husband and i got into a lil thingo over the phone! I guess its harder bcoz i cant see facials or emotions all i get is the voice over the phone uno? so i was (as usual) asking him about...how long are we gonna be in this situation for? are we ever gonna get out? are we going to still be there 5 yrs from now with 2 kids living in bunkbeds in the corner of our room haha of course it esculated to a mini fight, but i knew i was just hounding him for some sort of closure! but he just didnt know...we are in a "We Dont Know" world, where we literally dont know what will happen, where we will be, what we will be doing, how we will be doing. I guess im jealous of everyone! Im jealous of couples whether they are renting or have their own house...living on their own! living under their own rules...not everyone elses! Thats what we are....we dont get a say in things, we have no room. It comes to a point that when we (one day) do get our own joint...that we will be living as far away from these people as possible. Yes its sad, but i think we want to be far enough that they cant just spring up on us whenever they want, they will have to call before they come hahaha! we want freedom...FREEDOM!


Anyways, i havent had a very good week. Dont know whats wrong with me but the littlest of things bug me, been one of those months hahaha! This sunday my boss is taking us guys from work to Tangalooma on his boat! we are going snorkelling, so i think that will end my week well! And also my BABY is coming back FOREVER next thursday! So i guess from then on, everything will be ok...bcoz ill have him back! :)

Anyways enough from me today.

Happy Friday

<3

Day 1: Deactivation

DAY 1: Deactivation

Howdyyy.

So last night i had enough! i had enough of the chocolate i was eating when i was "supposed to be on a diet". I had enough of friends, i had enough of family, had enough of myself. So this morning i woke up, came to work checked out facebook and

Deactivated It.

Why? Well it really takes up all my time haha plus i wanted to escape a lil bit from certain people! and uno its such a distraction! it probs wont last long but i was proud of myself to just do it! haha my husband thought i wouldnt do it! and then when i did he was like "you wont last a day". Challenge Accepted! 4.40hrs and counting!

I feel empty, which is so sad but uno what? as i sit here eating my "healthy" bean and tuna salad! I will have no excuse when i get home to run downstairs to my gym and do something! and while im at it, hide the chocolate all the wonderful people gave me for my birthday! haha im not happy with myself, i feel as if im falling down a very long and dark hole to "unhealthiness" and not fitting into clothes, refusing to go shopping for new ones bcoz u break down crying at "the size you have to buy now", refusing to meet up with people bcoz ur thinking about what they think of u
...enoughs enough CLAUDIA HANSEN! ENOUGH! stop making excuses...its low! and stupid! you wont go anywhere if you dont take a step.

So goodbye Facebook for a day or so hahaha! bring on super duper slim, healthy, determined and happy claudia.

i miss you

:)

HAPPY SUNDAY!

Ok Ok, Its been a while my followers, i do apoligize but i just have the same excuse again, work, work and more work! All my hard work has paid off i finally tho i got a pay rise which i am sooo soo HAPPY ABOUT! anyways back to why im here....lol

Today i took my lovely mother out for sushi and a movie! I dont do it often bcoz i feel as if i dont have enough time but you know what? we deserve it! We watched Sarah Jessica Parker's new movie "I Dont Know How She Does It". I actually really enjoyed it! I sat there thinking to myself...How does she do it? How can people do this? how hard would it be? I respect and take my hat off to every woman who is succesful  in their career and at home. I was in my own world driving home aswell thinking to myself  WOW when you think about it, we all juggle our lives!

I work 8-5 monday to friday 8-12 on a Saturday...Add on 30-45 mins of travel every morning and every afternoon to get to and from work. that leaves me what? 3 hrs each day which i do house cleaning, washing, cooking, preping for lunch, talking to my husband on the other side of QLD, Facebooking and catching up with friends and family! But uno compared to others this really is nothing uno i dont have children or anything! I guess im very surprised at myself for even doing this. Ive always been this very calm and laidback person that never thought id be a housewife haha! i really thought id be living at my parents house still at my age lol its funny when you grow up you think yoru going be here or there...doing this or doing that! But it never happens LOL

Anyways so Kate in "I Dont Know How She Does It" ..she was a very succesful business woman with two kids, she had to be a mother, a wife, she travelled all the time for work. Its amazing! Hat off to her (even tho its a movie) but im sure there are heaps of mothers like this. And maybe one day everything will turn out ok for me :) Having a career and a family i think are both important! But uno at the start of the movie she was all CAREER CAREER but at the end she realized that its all about the balance between the two. I think thats what is important about life...BALANCE! Without balance you fall.


So as people may know i do watch a couple shows, once i finish a series i try find a new one and at the moment im hooked on a show called"Parenthood". Its great! i guess i started watching it bcoz it has Lauren Graham in it and as most people know she was Loralai in "GILMORE GIRLS" which i absolutely LOVE LOL Its just about a 4 siblings who all have different lives and family situations. Adam, the successful business owner with a wife at home...a Daughter who is rebelling at 15 and a son who as aspergers, i dont know how many times ive cried at the struggle theyve had with max who as Aspergers (lol im a softy). Sarah who married a drug/alcoholic and had to kids...a daughter who is a rebel and a shy son, they ahd to move back to her parents house because she couldnt afford anything. Crosby (my fav haha) he is a studio recordest who is fun, vibrant and only found out he has a 5 yr old son. And Julia who is a sucessful career woman who works while her husband is the stay at home dad. I guess the movie we watched reminded me of Julie from Parenthood a lil. Shes trying to juggle the career and the family but struggles a bit. But uno even tho the movie and the tv show is really not reality...it could be! im sure whats happening with these families are happening to someone around the world.

I guess the movie inspired me a lil and im kinda probably not even making any sense but ahhhh welll what are blogs for?? haha LOL  Anyways im gonna enjoy the rest of my coffee and help prep for the lovely Sunday Roast my parents are cooking.

Hope everyone is having a blessed Sunday

Love,

Claudz

xxx